On our last morning of vacation, I got up to see the sunrise. I walked to the beach alone and thought I was actually going to miss the sunrise all together because it was already getting kind of light outside. So I ran a bit and tried my best to hustle off my “just-out-of-bed” saunter. I got to the beach and looked to the brightest part of the horizon, it had already popped over the edge of the land but there was a giant cloud blocking it. It’s like God was saving the spectacular part just for me. I got to the sand…toes just barely touching the cool water and watched the sun gloriously peek above the cloud. It was gorgeous. So quiet. So peaceful.
I am an extrovert. I love people, parties and pretty much any excuse for a social gathering…but as I get older I realize how much I need alone time. And how much I actually enjoy it (something my 18-year old self would have NEVER believed.) I also realize that I need quiet moments with just me and my thoughts.
A quote that my friend Shauna said that has stuck with me for the last year is this: “It’s in the quiet I remember who I want to be.”
Yes. Just, yes. I’ve realized when I don’t create those moments of intentional quiet, I am not as centered with myself. I’m not as good of a listener to the people around me. See, when I make time to listen to myself, to listen to the soft voice inside God has given to me, I seem to be a better listener to others. It starts with me.
So, I stood on the beach, talked to myself and God. I was quiet. Watching the waves roll in and out. I asked questions, I said a lot of thank you's and I was trying to absorb every ounce of beauty. It was a necessary recharging for me. I was there for about an hour and right before I left I looked to my left and there was a rainbow. WHAT? It was so cool. Rainbows signify promises and it was just a cool reminder from God. Like He was listening and wanted to show me. I was so thankful.
I don’t always do it enough but man, when I do, I’m never disappointed. Make time for yourself in the quiet places. Listen. Pray. Ask questions. Dream. Cry. Thank. It’s all good.
Love you all!